AN UNFORGETABLE OPEN MIC
Dear Diary,
When I woke up on Sunday, I had no idea what the day had in store for me.
Imagine this: I get up and start warming up my voice. It’s Open Mic day! Exciting! Right? Wrong.
I try to practice, but my body starts aching and my voice barely comes out. A clear sign that I’m triggered. My body shuts down and I crash. But an hour later, I wake up, get slowly ready, and take an Uber to the venue.
Two friends show up to support me, and by the time I step on stage, I feel calmer. I made it.
The crowd is so supportive! I smile and tell them, “I hope you're ready to feel some stuff!”
I play ‘How Can I Trust?’ and then… something unexpected happens. I find myself saying: “One of my friends just lost her dog recently… and I went through the same thing a few years ago. This song is called ‘Please Come Back.’”
What am I doing?! Suddenly, I’m not okay anymore. I haven’t fully healed from the loss that inspired this one, so I’m holding back my tears, barely keeping it together. But I push through and finish the song.
To lift the mood, I close the set with ‘Stop Breaking My Heart!’ and at this point? I’m in paradise.
I step off stage with the biggest smile on my face. For the first time in three years, I actually enjoyed myself on stage. I’m healing!
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Love, Fel 💜