IT'S BEEN A WHILE
Dear Diary,
I took a break from social media for a while to focus on facing my fears of leaving the house again, and I've made a lot of progress! Last week, I went to 2 open mics, and performed for the first time with my band mates. Oh, by the way, I got a new band member! His name is Thomas Roiss and he's an awesome guitarist/person.
So, the open mics: I had so much fun! Performing again after a break of 2 months was a bit hard, I felt my whole body shake and I lost control of my voice. That made me really nervous when the second open mic came, actually, so that day was really hard. It's funny, it's so easy to see my videos and think “Oh, she's healed!” but there is so much going on behind the scenes, and while I am healing, I'm also still struggling sometimes.
It was a close call and I actually almost didn't make it to the venue at Ludwig und Kunst, but when I did, all my anxiety went away. The vibe was so amazing, and quite a few people came to watch me! Thank you for coming!
It was my first time having a big stage and no guitar, I felt so free to perform and really explore the space around me! As always, I recorded the whole performance, and you can watch both videos at my fan club!
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Love, Fel 💜